Okay so I deleted the blog I uploaded yesterday, I hated the way I’d written it was all far to waffle like and like I’d vomited on the page so we’re starting again!
What have I done this weekend? Well today I’ve had a melt down (like a massive one) thought I’d screwed everything up, went on a rant at ross about being a waste of space you know the usual shite that a hormonal girl goes through when she’s in the middle of the flare up to end all flare ups.
I had a shower, washed my hair and shaved my legs and just relaxed and yeah okay the shower head made my skin feel like it was on fire (fibro problems) but hey it made my head feel a whole lot better! I’ve had a rant on Facebook about how badly someone had parked which would have blocked an ambulance getting down my road (which we all know is kinda important to me seeing as they are my taxi on a regular basis). So overall this evening I’m feeling a lot better than I did this morning!
So this blog, I’ve officially been blogging on and off for a year (I took a break through last April and may due to reasons explained in “an overdue life update”.
And how am I feeling about all of it?
Well mainly completely overwhelmed by the response this has had, I have reached over half of the countries in the world…do you know how mental that is to me? Like I’m 21 a bit odd and live a “normal” life I never thought this would take off. Yes I do this for me to have a space to share my feelings but I also do it for you guys (I mean you seem to like them..I think)
Sometimes it is hard for me to write, I lose all motivation and confidence in this then remember actually it’s something I’m doing good at I should be damn proud of it…so what I’m trying to say is yes I will be continuing to grow my blog and get it to reach as many people as possible, at the end of the day that’s why I started it!
Sometimes I will take breaks and their may not be anything for a month but I know people will understand and that actually that’s okay to not have to do it on a daily basis and it’s okay to let it slide sometimes and that for me that is a big thing for me to actually accept.
so what I’m trying to say is yes you are all stuck with me, yes I will continue to share the gross and truthful facts about living with this shit and yes you are all welcome to come along on my journey!
That feels much better and like it’s come out of my brain and not a half codeine induced brain fart…
Don’t forget all of my social media is below where I try and post regular updates, I love you all and thank you for your support!
Signing off for now