Feeling lost

Hi Everyone,

I hope you're doing well, I have taken some time to reflect on the blog that I wrote yesterday and really wasn't happy with it! So I have decided to write a different one.

I have just come back from the doctors feeling even more lost and confused than I did this morning. Doctors and hospital appointments are really hard especially when you have to sit and listen to the doctors saying "we have no clue" or "I'm really lost with you"!

If the doctors are lost how the hell am I supposed to deal with all of this. There's only so much research I can do into potential things I could have wrong before I become a hypochondriac…and I really don't think I need to add that to my shit list that is life!!

I have now been told that I am no further forward, I've been handed enough codeine to kill an elephant and been told that when my heart rate hits 140 or above I have to call an ambulance or go back into hospital.

A&E better prepare a bed for me to stay in for the next month or 2 cause I will be there every 5 minutes if I follow the advice of my doctor! This is however only necessary until the cardiologists have reviewed my case which is the 17th August…then I'll probably have to wait until January for an appointment.

I am now really starting to understand how people let this eat them up to the point that they will not get out of bed. However I am not prepared to give my life up yet and will continue to blog and live life how I want to!

If you take one thing from this please let it be it's okay to feel lost in the massive world of medicine but there will always be someone to turn too, even if it does have to be me…the crazy lady that doesn't beat around the bush when it comes to stuff like this!

Please do not let these conditions beat you down, stay strong and it will get better…so they say anyway!

Signing off for now

Scarlett x

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